Sometimes at night fireflies light up; and so we catch them and put
them in a jar. Living beings they are, and lamps they become until
they burn out and die. When a song is born it holds within itself a
certain power of the same measure, holding captive the thoughts and
ideas, emotions and inner turmoil of its creator...growing and
evolving over time to mean different things to different
people...shedding light into things it never knew it could. And so,
here you are---my jar of fireflies.
"Invisible War" is my first jar...a collection of some of the first
fireflies I ever caught; mostly they were just sprouting their
wings in that time, learning all about life, exploring the world,
and frolicking about with me in fascinating places like Mongolia,
where I lived until I was eight. Really I caught the first specimen
in this particular jar when I was fifteen--"Song of the Open
Road"--based on the Whitman poem of the same name.
Now, at 20, I'm always chasing around a few fireflies at a time,
attempting to master the art of capturing the most elaborate
creatures. The idea is that the better the creature, the longer it
will stay alive and the brighter its light will shine. We need
bright light, see, because it's dark sometimes, very dark.
I have dreams about how the world should be. Indeed we live in a
place which was meant to be beautiful; though we oftentimes ruin it
ourselves by default. In science there is the idea of entropy--the
tendency of things toward disorder. If a vase is sitting on a
little table, it's quite probable that it could fall off and
shatter into a hundred pieces, if not rather unlikely that all
those pieces would jump back together again and shape themselves
once again into a beautiful vase--unless of course someone worked
very hard to glue it all back together into something new and
different.
Unfortunately the implications of this in real life are much more
complicated than a single vase shattering to the ground. We see
natural disasters that destroy and reshape lives; wars, rumors of
wars that create tension and dissension between people groups;
poverty, disease, starvation, and everything that lies between.
These are the things which burden my heart, and the things which
I've always felt compelled to express through my music. If all I do
in life is shine a little light into the dark spaces of the world,
my time on earth will certainly not have been wasted.